Author: Cindy Visser

This piece has been in my drafts for a year now and decided to publish it, clearly at the time I was not playing well with others and wrote this.

Call me crazy, I will shake your hand and thank you…

Call me weird, I will invite you to a night of Clock Work Orange…

Call me dark or demented, I will let you visit my mind so you can see the demons play…

Call me a psychopath, I will greet you in Harley Quinn style “nice to meet ya”…

Call me twisted, I will invite you to ride the merry go round with me…

Call me whatever you want but I have been known to not react to being called Ice Queen, Heart of Stone, Fake, Heart Breaker, Liar, Unloyal, Heartless, Mentally Unstable, Trashy and a Tart. Oh, and I will introduce you to the people who made me this way.

The tears will dry and my heart will heal and for now I reserve the right to be one of the above at some point in my life when dealing with others. If you don’t like it or you feel I’m treating you in this manner, then you are obviously one of them and you’d better walk away.

Dealing with the devil and being played by the gamers can only show me how to play back and how to handle you. I have seen it all, heard all the lies and I decide when not to play.

There are the awesome others who have been through the same, hopefully not as many as me, lol. Your awesomeness will make you who you are and no one can take that from you.

Just be you, as I am being me…

XXX

I had an epiphany the other night, so crazy so lost in translation thinking about Chloé and Pigeons.

So as awesome, lovable and good natured Miss Chloé is, obedience is her fail point and trying to discipline her is like working on a project day in and out, blood sweat and tears only to find out at deadline moment the client decided on a different direction. All that time and energy and in the end completely futile… honesty was the best way to describe it.

Chloé is spoilt and, yes as mentioned through my blogs, has taken the role of my child, my only child as I don’t have kids of my own. I’m the parent of a four-legged fluff ball, who gets away with murder and rules the house… Miss Chloé…

So back to this particular night which was last week, sick with flu which has been doing its rounds at the office and at dying point. I don’t usually visit the doc unless its DEFCON 1, I also don’t take tablets for every little thing. This day was DEFCON 1 and meds were demanded.

I now know why I had to take the meds before bedtime , half an hour to be exact and feeling so sorry for myself I was not waiting another second and took the tablet around 5.

It then dawned upon me that Chloé is not disobedient or naughty, I really think she doesn’t understand human talk. The pigeons on our roof keep her well entertained and the only time she sits up right and silent on best behavior wining and moaning in reply back to the pigeons… call me crazy but to get Chloé to sit, then sit still, for half an hour is not even worth the effort. 5am the pigeons arrive and it’s a whole day affair of communicating. Even the Kiewiet in the park protecting its eggs when it senses danger near them, is the moment Chloé gets her lazy bum up, with such determination and vigour she rearranges the house on exit to investigate, almost repositioning the sliding door with security gate onto the boundary precast wall. It’s insane and not very humorous when a trip to the bathroom or drink of water ends up with bumps and bruises and a mouthful of profanities which only a bumped baby toe can produce.

It’s an occurrence we experience every night, that we now tuned in with Kiwiet bird so already in preparation to calm the madness down. Unfortunately, the pigeons are the worst and still cannot predict or get use to this 15kg border collie lunging from her bed in one quick swift jump up onto our beds, at full force and worst of all not just landing on the bed but always and without fail landing solidly on our legs or the painful nether regions. She doesn’t move until her chat with pigeons are done and only then jumps back into her bed and falls back into her doggy dream sleep like nothing’s happened. This can go on 3 to 4 times a night. My only sanity is believing this abrupt disturbance at random times is her being guard dog and bravely protecting us against the danger and carnage occurring on our thatch roof. The pigeon nightly shuffle. However, I have noticed that planes on the Red Eye route encourage the same chaotic reaction.

The dogs can bark, gates and or doors slam and she won’t move an inch. Let that Kiewiet bird run around screeching in alertness and Chloé takes notice.

Don’t even get me started when it’s thunder storms and lightning, there is absolutely no sleep. Chloé goes mental and have to ensure she doesn’t dash outside because she runs around the pool barking at the sky. Some music or TV and a whole lot of comforting Chloé is all we can do to keep her calm.

I know that you thinking are you mad in allowing it but like I said she is my child and admittedly takes huge advantage as it’s the only time Chloé lets you hold her… is that so demented? Lol

Back to the pigeons and Kiewiet birds and by now we realise these meds are definitely to blame for these insane thoughts with me trying to convince myself speaking pigeon just might get her attention to listen to me… and just maybe finally teach her obedience. lol

I’m just saying…

XXX

Series overload.

The addiction to series is, well to say the least completely, overwhelming. Not the fact that I love series but the overwhelming feeling of loss and withdrawal when the current series ends and you left wondering how could you possibly recover and what series is next to fill the gap of wanting more from the one you watched… It’s crazy honestly.

However it’s an addiction that if I had the addictive personality, would rather have a series addiction then any other.

I think I have watched Homeland all the seasons up to date 4 or 5 times. Game of Thrones and Vikings I cant even count how many times. Lucifer, The Following, the list is endless. Recently gave Chicago fire a try and addicted to that and Gray’s Anatomy which I never thought I would ever watch, its just mental.

I also realised that I cannot watch an episode and wait a week to watch the next one, so I download all at once then have the challenge of pacing myself or I end up binge watching all night long… It’s honestly my Kryptonite.

Is it a bad thing? Well I don’t think it is unless you skipping work or responsibility to get your next episode fix or you spend your salary on data to download because you have no patience to wait for the next episode… lol sounds like it could get the better of you… I wonder if a person could get to that point? Do people like this really exist? Gamers seem more likely candidates.. Lol and how do you recover? Maybe open rehabs for series addicts where TVs are banned and any talk of series is prohibited. That’s just mental because drug rehabs keep a person occupied with TV so how do you keep the series addict occupied… With Drugs? lol

All jokes aside, any addiction is bad and of course it’s a serous situation having known people who got hooked and there with no return. I’m really just bantering here… Keeping life funny I Guess.

So yes I’m definitely guilty for advertising a series I love on FB to influence friends to watch it and get excited at hearing who is watching what and to find the next download. I don’t get people who hate watching TV so having a conversation with them is for me so futile, you just hope you find that common ground that doesn’t involve the box or big screen. You hoping that your little bit of everything else gets you through the interaction because while you get your time-limited basic info from the News on TV, they’re getting the actual story and more from newspapers and the Internet.

Then again you could just skip all that and let them talk about their job or other things that you just don’t know how to talk about, well you probably do but don’t throw that funny one liner in because they won’t get it.

Each to their own no judgement, but I have met a handful and honestly found it difficult to have a conversation. I could not quote a famous line or get excited over going to see a real cool movie in VIP. It’s just challenging to say the least so I end up just listening to them and adding a comment here and there so we can connect on some level.

Yes and I know we are referred to as couch potatoes or being lazy and yes have been told how boring it must be and yes reminded of how much of life I’m missing out on… Lol have you read my blog? I have had many adventures and more, I work all day and sleep at night and still make time for a series or two.

I do find the movie and series buffs seem to have more light-hearted look on life. I mean a Comedy can make you laugh and animation feel young at heart. That horror that gets your heart pumping or the thriller that keeps your mind guessing, it’s just a place to switch off from reality of what’s actually going on. It’s a place where you suspend your disbelief and live in that imaginative world that keeps you safe and happy inside.

Im just saying. No judgment at all… It’s just a funny way of looking at life.

XXX